Happy 3rd Birthday  / Grandma Judi

Happy Birthday Sweetie

I hope your day was filled with lots of angel friends at your 3rd birthday party.

I went to church and they were having a baptism for a baby about 2 months old. I thought of you and couldn't stop the tears.  I keep asking God when this hurt will go away.  I just can't seem to let you go.  I know you're happy in heaven and I know I'll see you again but I  just can't get past the why God gave you to us especially your mom for such a short time. She is strong but I know her heart breaks every time she thinks of you. I guess as her mom my heart breaks for her and there's nothing I can do to help her pain. 

Well sweetie thanks for listening again.  You're always there for me.  Can you ask papa to help Chelsea and Auntie Jenny with their pain?  Meibe you and your angel baby friends can help too.  Thanks sweetie.

Just know I will love you forever until my last breath.  Hugs and butterfly kisses to you and Dylan.

 

Love you lots XXOO

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who you'd be today...  / Garrett Griffin (cousin)

Who you'd be today---

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
I still can't believe you're gone

It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today

Would you see the world would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Some days the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
I know it might sound crazy

i love you and miss you jalyn. keep watching over everyone for me. (:

-garrett

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Happy 3rd Birthday Princess  / Mommy

Happy 3rd Birthday in Heaven Princess.....

As I woke up this morning a weight is on my chest.  I keep thinking back to 3 years ago today....Daddy and I were on our way to the hospital for the BEST day of my life!!  I could believe I was about to have a daughter.  When you were born and the dr said "Its a girl!" I immediatly started to cry....then I held you and the most amazing feeling came over my body.  I love your brothers more than life but there is just something between a daughter and a mother I cannot explain.  You had made my life complete....I think you were only a few hours old when I had your first hairbow in :) 

I imagine you today long hair in pig tails pink ruffled dress opening princess presents.  I see you with your big blue eyes and wonder what you would be like.  I wonder if you would have been "daddys little girl" 

I know you are in a safe place and are watching over us.  I hope that you have a wonderful princess party in heaven!!  We will be letting balloons go for you to catch today pink and purple of course!!

Be close to us today as we take another family picture without you in it....that is the hardest part.  When we have family events and I was feel like there is someone missing...never complete. 

I love you and miss you more with each day Jalyn....Happy 3rd Birthday to my baby girl....wish we could celebrate with you.

Kisses to heaven for my princess

Mommy

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Missing you Everyday  / Auntie Nickie

Well sweet baby girl...I just wanted to say how much I love you and miss you! Today Mommy will talk about you and how you were taken from us. Keep her strong. I know you are proud of her:) We are.

Love Auntie Nickie

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Good Morning Sweet Angel Baby  / Grandma Judi

Good morning sweetie

We need your help with Chelsea.  Please take her pain away.  Also Auntie Jennifer's pain.  It's been a rough week for everyone.  I prayed to God he wouldn't take another one of my grandchildren. Taking you was more than I could take. 

Mom is going to give a speech this weekend in your honor. I was suppose to go but I just can't.  She is so strong.  I'm suppose to be her strength but she is mine.  When it comes to you I just crumble. No one has ever touched me like you and I never got a chance to show you just how much I love you. As you can see it's a very bad day for me.  Yep I'm crying and it's rent day  not good!!!!!

I feel helpless when it comes to Jennifer and now Chelsea. So my sweet baby girl I really need you and Dylan and every angel baby that will come and help us.  Thank Jesus and our heavenly Father for taking care of you babies until we can get there with you.

Remember I love you so much.  Save room for me preferrably by some flowers and the  lake.

Butterfly kisses to heaven for my babies.

Love you lots

Grandma Judi

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Missing you sweet angel  / Mommy

Well...it seems everyone asks you to do things for them on here....so I am not. 

I am simply writing to tell you how grateful I am for the 82 days I held you.  I am grateful for the sweet smile you had and the incredible laugh you allowed me to hear. 

I am grateful for the love only a daughter can give a mother.  I am grateful for the 20+ prs of shoes I got to buy.  I am so grateful you had enough hair I could put a bow in it. 

I am grateful that I had a daughter...some people can never day that.

I am grateful for each time you squeezed my finger and looked in my eyes.  I am grateful for the times you cried. 

I am grateful you did not suffer.  I am grateful for all the nurses and doctors who tried to help you. 

I am grateful your brothers still say your name and say they love and miss you. 

But most of all I am grateful for the wholeness you made me feel.  Even if I was only whole for 82 days....at least I was whole with you. 

I love you my princess.... always have and always will. 

Kisses to heaven for you.... my baby girl

Mommy

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More Butterflies  / Amanda
Well sweet pea it sounds like you need to send some butterflies to your mommy and grandma. I see so many butterflies every day and it warms my heart just thinking of you. It gives me comfort. I love you sweetie. Send butterflies to everyone and let them know you are ok. Close

Happy Summer Day!  / Grandma Judi

Good Morning beautiful baby girl

We could really us some heat down here Jalyn.  It's the coldest Summer I've ever seen even the butterflies don't want to fly.

Grandma went and had a full body scan to please the family.  After our little episode some were worried.  Whatever the results I'm ready any time the Big guy wants me but I'd like to stay a little longer. 

I'm going with all my sisters to Auntie Darlene's for the week-end. We're having our cards read so if you want to tell me something come along.  Then on the 22nd  Mom Auntie Jennifer and Auntie Nicki and me are going to visit me'-me' and play some dice then out to dinner at mom's favorite place and then we're going hot tubbing.  A girls night out which we all need. 

Well sweet girl I have to get back to work.  Say hi an kiss everyone for me.  Butterfly kisses are coming to you and Dylan catch them and send them back to me.  I love and miss you so much.

XXXOOO

Grandma Judi

 

 

 

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All The Butterflies  / Amanda
I want to thank you for all the butterflies. Everytime I see one I think of you. These past couple weeks have been really horrible for me and it seems as things get worse the more butterflies I see. Thank you for the courage and hope to keep going. I want so much to give up but then I see a butterfly or firefly and I keep going. Thank you sweetness. I love you. Close

Thinking of my princess  / Mommy

Well Princess today is one of those days...

I woke up missing you like crazy. I hate these days when my heart is so heavy I can hardly breathe.  But I know I will have these days. 

Leyton is getting so big I cannot believe it.  He is sassy as ever and I know that you help him with that :) 

The childrens hospital has asked me to speak at their annual bereavement ceremony.  What an honor to be able to tell your story... to tell people that there is hope.  But I have to believe that myself and sometimes I can't.  But I will stand up in front of all those people and tell your story tell them how you have touched so many lives...and then tell them taht I have survived...even when I didn't want to..I did.  So I need your help with this.  Tell me what you want me to say....

Well sweet baby girl... I just wanted to tell you that I miss you and love you so very much.  You are always in my heart every breathe that I take.

Kisses to heaven for my beautiful daughter! Fly with the butterflies Jalyn! 

Missing and loving you as always

Mommy

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Butterflies / Amanda
Thank you for all the butterflies you've sent me. It helps make some of the pain go away when I see your butterflies. The night of the 4th I saw fireflies and automatically thought of you. It was to dark to see butterflies so I think you sent the fireflies to let me know that you where watching the fireworks in heaven. I miss you princess. Hug my little baby cousin Tyler for me. Love you. Close

Just to say HI  / Grandma Judi

Hi Sweetie

It's mom and dad's anniversary today.  I remember the wedding  well.  We had lots of fun an mom was a beautiful bride.  She danced  and laughed lots.  Dad had on the bottom of his shoes "get-er-done.  That was a saying from a movie.

What were you trying to tell me the other night?  Grandma's chest and heart hurt for three days.  You popped me right out of bed.  I felt you in my arms and your weight on my chest was overwhelming. I miss you so much the lump is still in my throat.

Mom got a phone call and will be going to Milwaukee to tell your story.  I can't go I'm no good to mom when she does these things.  She's so strong and brave.  She loves talking about her princess.  I fall apart and can't breathe.  So you go with her and cheer her on.

Auntie Margie was on your site yesterday but coulnd't write anything.  She crys every time she read the postings.  I told her she needs to write a little something so mom knows she visits you.

Well angel baby say hi to greatgrandpa and uncle len and darlene Dyan Jesse Ralph Robin and all the angel babies for me.   Give them all a big hug and kiss but keep the butterfly kisses for yourself. 

Fly with the butterflies sweetie until we meet in heaven.

Love you lots  XXXOOO

Grandma Judi

 

 

 

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A beautiful day for a beautiful Princess  / Grandma Judi

Good Morning Angel baby,

Thank you for the butterflies, they are beautiful.  As you know Auntie Jenny is still suffering with the migraines.  Please ask God and Jesus to take them away.  Have all your angel baby friends hold her and make the hurt go away.  I hope heaven is taking care of you and Dylan.  Uncle Jerome fixed Dylan's butterly chime and brought it back to his grave.  I went and talked to Dylan on Father's day and asked him if he is taking care of you and I wished all the daddys there a happy day in heaven.

Stay close my sweet princess.  Watch over mom and dad and the boys.  We all miss you so much. You will be forever in our thoughts and in our heart until we meet again.

So fly with the butterflies and give some hugs and kisses to everyone for me.

Love you lots sweetie

Grandma Judi    XXXXXOOOOO 

 

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Father's Day Kisses for Daddy  / Mommy

Good Morning Princess~ 

Today is Father's Day and even though Daddy doesn't say it, I can tell he is missing his little girl.  Send him a  butterfly to show him you are here with him.  He is picking strawberries with Leyton so it would be perfect time!! 

I have been struggling lately with our decision to be done having chidlren.  I know even if we had another daughter this void in my heart would not be filled.  But it is such a hard decision to make.  One day I think we made the right decision, the next I am worried we are making the wrong one and won't realzie it til its too late. 

Help me to feel at peace with our decision. Help me to realize that what we have is enough. 

I miss you so much!!  Send some butterflies to us and stay close.  We all miss you and love you more than anything on this earth!!  You are and forever will be our Princess!! 

Kisses to heaven for you!!  XOXO

I love you,

Mommy

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Hello Angel  / Amanda
Hey sweet princess. Things here are really though right now. I need a special angel to watch over me. I love you so much. Send me a butterfly! Close

A Poem  / Amanda

A Child Loaned

"I'll lend you for a while

A child of Mine," He said,

"For you to love the while she lives,

And mourn for when she's dead.

It may be six or seven years

Or twenty-two or twenty-three.

But will you, till I call her back,

Take care of her for me?

She'll bring her charms to gladden you,

And should her stay be brief,

You'll have her lovely memories

As solace for your grief."

"I cannot promise she will stay,

Since all from earth return,

But there are lessons taught down there

I want this child to learn.

I've looked this wide world over

In my search for teachers true,

And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,

I have selected you;

Now will you give her all your love,

Not think the labor vain,

Nor hate Me when I come to call

And take her back again?"

I fancied that I heard them say,

"Dear Lord, Thy will be done;

For all the joy Thy child shall bring,

The risk of grief we'll run.

We'll shelter her with tenderness,

We'll love her while we may,

And for the happiness we've known

Forever grateful stay.

And should the angels call for her

Much sooner than we planned,

We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,

And try to understand."

(Author Unknown)

A special poem for a very special princess! I miss and love you lots Jalyn Jo. Kisses to heaven.

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Hi Baby Girl  / Amanda
Hi princess. I miss you lots and wonder everyday what you would be doing at this age. I'm going through a rough time right now and could really use a butterfly. If only we could turn back time. Help your auntie Jenny she needs extra prayers right now too. Hopefully her headache will go away soon. I miss you princess.   Close

Hi Princess  / Mommy

Hi my baby girl!  You have been on my mind so  much these last few days.  It seems every time I talk to someone or watch TV, someone is having a baby girl.  I go back and forth about another baby, but the truth is, I only want a daughter.  I want the daughter I use to have. I know that will never happen, but it's my dream

Please send me a butterfly and some sunshine too.  I have been missing you more than anyone knows.  I try to be strong all the time, but it's really hard sometimes.  But I will do it for your brothers. 

Help me through this, help me get back to where I was okay with everything. Help me not think about the what if's all day.  I just want to be okay with things and right now I am not.  I want to be home with the boys all the time and I know that's not possible.  I am so afriad of something happening to them. 

But i know that I will find out someday why all of this happened to me.  Until then, please keep sending me butterflies and staying close. 

I love you more than you know and I miss you more than imaginable.  Fly with the butterflies sweet princess.

I love you!
Mommy

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Just to say Hi beautiful Princess  / Grandma Judi

Hi Sweetie,

Grandma was just sitting here thinking of you.  It's a beautiful day outside.  Spring has been a long time coming.  I can't wait for my first butterfly from you,  make it a pretty one just like you.

This Sunday is Mother's Day and I know it will be hard on mom but she'll be with me so maybe it will be a little easier.  Great grandma LaMarche is having her 92nd birthday on Saturday.  Tell Great grandpa she says she not ready to go and be with him in heaven just yet.  She's too funny.

Well sweetie,  kiss everyone for me and give all the angel babies a big hug too.  Tell everyone I love them.  Until we meet in heaven you fly with the butterflies. 

Kisses and Hugs to our favorite angel baby girl.

Love you lots  XXXXOOOO

 

 

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Happy Easter Princess  / Mommy

Happy Easter in Heaven Princess!

I hope you have a wonderful Easter in Heaven.  I am missing you like always.  Just sitting here wondering what color dress you would be wearing with hairbows to match.  Days like this I miss you most.  But i know you are where God thought you should be, even if I don't want you there. 

The weather has been beautiful and soon I know  your butterflies will be shwoing up.  Hugs and Kisses to everyone in heaven.  Tell them all HAppy Easter.

If I could be with you one more time, I would give up anything.  But I can't so until we meet again my princess, I will be loving you and missing you!

Hugs and Kissses to heaven for my baby girl! 

I love you,

Mommy

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