Good Afternoon Sweet Princess  / Grandma Judi
Jalyn,

It sure is cold down here.  I bet heaven is warm and toasty.  Please watch over Great Grandma,  she's not looking very well these days.  Almost 91 and still living alone and very stubborn.  She misses Great Grandpa lots.  Tell him to look after her too.  I know the day is coming soon and I hope God andJesus takes her home without any pain. Then she will join you, Dylan and Great Grandpa in Heaven. That will be some party. 

I guess you saw that our Packers lost and won't be in the Super Bowl.  Well they did it to themselves.  It is what it is and life goes on.

Well sweet angel, I better get back to work.  Please stay close to all of us especially your mom and dad and brothers.  Keep them healthly and happy.  Watch over all the rest of us too.  Kiss all the angel babies for me and give an extra big one to Dylan, Jesse and Great Grandpa for me.  

Oh yeah, I need help.  I can't find my book.  Show me where it is.

Fly with the butterflies sweet princess.  
Kisses to Heaven
Love you lots
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Thank You  / Amanda
Thank you for answering my prayers. I love you so much.  Give my angel Tyler a huge hug for me. I miss the both of you so much. Close

i miss you * a poem*  / Garrett Griffin (cousin)

we still  call you our angel 

 you were sent straight down from heaven

And i'd hold you close in your arms

I thought of the way you felt so cute

I never wanted you to leave

I wanted you to stay here holdin' me



I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you



I miss you 



i used to call you my princess

And now your livin' out my dream

Oh, how I wish you could see

Everything that's happenin' for me

I'm thinkin' back on the past

It's true the time is flyin' by too fast





I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you


I miss you



I know you're in a better place 

But I wish that I could see your face

I know you're where you need to be

Even though it's not here with me



I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you


I miss you 



i luv and miss u baby girl.......

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Very early good morning 3:32am  / Amanda
Hey Jalyn I've been sick and out of work for the past week.  Laying in bed I've been thinking about you alot.  I have a very important decision I need to make by tomorrow (or actually today).  Please send me the guidance so I know what to do. Stay with me as I'm heading into a very difficult next couple of days. I miss and love you very much. Close

Happy 1st Anniversary in Heaven  / Grandma Judi
Good Morning my sweet angel baby,

One year ago today our hearts were broken beyond repair and never to be whole again. God came and took our precious princess from us and brought her home to be the prettiest princess in heaven.

The lives you changed in your short life is just so unbelieveable. You were sent for a special reason and some day we will all know what that reason was, but until then know that we were blessed to have you in our lives sweet angel baby.

My heart is still so sad but that's because I'm selfish and didn't want to let you go.  Mom and Dad are doing better.  Leyton is helping them along.  He is so cute.  Thank you for sending him to us.  He will never replace you for there could only be one PRINCESS JALYN.

Please stay with us during the next few days cause they are going to be a little difficult. Instead of me holding mom up,she's been holding me up for the last year  Mom has a great outlook now.  She is celebrating your life and not dwelling on your death.  I going to try and do the same. I'm so proud of her. She has come so far.  Watch over your brothers, they all need you and miss you so much.

Well my sweet princess, Grandma has to go now.  Have a great day in heaven.  Kiss Dylan,Jesse,Ralph,Robin and their family, Great Grandpa for me.  I will miss and love you Princess Jalyn Jo until I breathe my last breath and get to see you again.

Fly with the butterflies Angel XXXXXOOOOO
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One year ago...  / Mommy
My sweet, beautiful Princess...

Today is your one year "Angelversary".  One year ago today, you became one of God's angels.  

Some days it seems like a decade ago you were taken from us.  It feels like forever since I have held you close to me and kissed your cheek.  But most days, I relive that day over and over again in my head.   I have flashbacks of you on the table.  I have memories of the doctors telling us you were not going to make it.  But mostly I think back to when they placed you in my arms and you took your last breathe.  It still feels like such a dream.  I keep thinking that I am going to wake up one morning and this will all go away.  

I know some day I will find out the reason why you were taken from us.  Each day my smile comes a little easier, my heart opens a little more and my life becomes my own again.  I know I have a long road still ahead of me, but you have helped me through the worst year of my life.  I know you will continue to help me. 

Stay close today as I try and remember your beautiful life instead of your death.  Today I am going to honor you with memories and kisses to heaven all day long.  

Auntie Jenny and I went to the NICU and donated blankets, books and poems in your honor.  We wanted to honor the babies who made it home.  The parents you have their child to hold.  We saw Teri and realzied how hard she is still taking it.  Be with her today.  She will be thinking of you all day.  

PLease know my princess I am loving you and missing you so very much.  You will forever be in my heart and in every breathe I take.  

Kisses to heaven for you.  
I love you, 
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A year in heaven  / Auntie Nickie
Well my sweet girl,where do I begin.
One year ago today you left us to go see Papa Lamarche in heaven. I can't believe it has been that long already. I still to this day replay that early morning when we had to say goodbye. As hard as it was and still is, I know there is reason behind it. Funny how losing you has made us all stronger. I myself have learned to love harder, laugh longer, and cherish everyone in my life. I know today will be hard for your mommy, but as you hold her heart know that she to is learning how to smile again. You little girl have made her stronger. I miss you so much and somedays I cry and yell at God for taking you and leaving us here to find a reason.  Then when the tears dry I know you are ok and helping us all in this life here. So today as you share your new birthday in heaven, take a moment to let us all know your ok. I love you beautiful girl. 

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Good Morning  / Amanda
Good morning sweet princess.  I'm missing you like crazy. I think of you every day. I hope you had a good Christmas and a Happy New Year in Heaven. My family is leaving for Disney World this afternoon.  Please fly with us and keep us safe.  Everytime I look at Cinderella's Castle I'll think of you.  I can't begin to imagine the castle you live in in Heaven.  I'll bet it is bigger and better then Cinderella's.  I love you sweet baby girl. Close

You hold my heart!  / Auntie Nickie

Hello my sweet baby girl. I hope that you had a wonderful Christmas and New Year in heaven. I bet you drove Papa LaMarche tired with all your running and hugs and kisses. I am sure uncle Ralph was there with you too. It was a struggle this year without you I won't lie, but you gave us Leyton and what a happy little man he is. I watched your Mommy this year and she seems stronger then ever,you made her this way I have no doubt. I know that her heart hurts everyday, but I also know you will take her hand and show her how to smile,love,laugh and survive. As hard as it is for me to beleive God had this master plan to give you to us for 82 days, I know that is what our family needed. We needed to lose you to make us stronger. I miss you every single day, and I still find silent tears falling down my cheek. Yet I know it is you that softly wipes them away. Thank you baby girl. Know we love and miss you with everything in us. Love you princess!!

Auntie Nickie

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Happy New Year  / Mommy
Happy New Year Sweet Princess~  

As I rung in the new year with our friends and family, I silently thought about my New  Years Resolution.  I didn't say it to anyone when they would ask, I just shrugged my shoulders.  I didn't want to share it, it was a personal goal.  But I will share it withyou.  

In 2007, I lost you.  It was the toughest year of my life.  I spent the entire year trying to get over you and deal with your death.  All of my memories were of your death and the consequences.  2006 was a sucky year and there is no denyng that.  I was lost in grief and tears.  

So in 2008, I will still be trying to live my life without, but I will be honoring you instead.  INstead of donated items to parents in grief, I will donate items to parents who have their children to bring home with them.  I will celebrate the children who have won the battle, not lost it.  True I will remember and grieve for every mother who loses a child, nobody should have to go through that.  But I will be doing so while honoring you.  

2008.....here I come.  I come in withflying colors....2008 will not conquer me like 2007 did.  2008 is my year to tell your story.  I will talk to anyone who will listen and will spread your love and hope everywhere.  I am here to honor my daughter, my precious baby girl. 

So Happy New Year Jalyn.  I know you will be along with me for this ride in 2008.  You will be my strength and the wind beneath my wings.  

I am living for you.  I love you and will always miss you more than my face will ever show to people.  But you know and I know my heart will never be whole again...but it doesn't mean I can't still live with the hole in my heart.  

I love you baby girl....Kisses to heaven for you!

Love, 
Mommy
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Merry Christmas Sweet Princess  / Mommy
Merry Christmas in Heaven my sweet Angel.  

As I went to bed last night, filled with excitement for your brothers, I suddenly was filled with tears.  I missed you so much.  It was the first time in awhile that I sat and cried for you.  I laid there just imagining what you would look like today. 

I am sure you would have a beautiful red Christmas dress with matching bows in your hair.  I could just imagine your delight when you awoke to find all of the presents under the tree.  So as I drifted off to sleep, I dreamed of you and your first and only Christmas with us. 

Days like today, it is so hard not to think of what you would be like.  As I watch your brothers, I have an empty part of my heart that just wants to scream out.  But I don't.  I am strong for your brothers...I have to be.  But please know that even if I make it through today with a smile on my face, I am crying on the inside for you.  I wish you were with me.  I wish I had to fight with you to put your hair in a piggy tails...I wish you spilled your milk all over your dress.  Because that would mean you are still with me.  

But you are in heaven now, and if there is one special place to be on Christmas, it's Heaven.  You get to spend Jesus birthday with him!  So spend some time with us today and let us feel you.  It's days like today that it is so hard to cope with you being gone.  

I  hope you have a wonderful Christmas in Heaven.  PLease know we all miss and love you so very much.  We all long for the day to hold you again.

Christmas Kisses to Heaven for our Princess.  

Love,
Mommy

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Merry Christmas to my Angels Babies  / Grandma Judi

Merry Christmas Princess Jalyn

I found this poen and thought I would post it for you.

I'm Spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this Year

I see the countless Christmas trees,
Around the world below.
With tiny lights, like hearven's stars,
Reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular,
Please wipe away that tear.
For I'm spending Christmas, 
With Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs,
That people hold so dear.
But the sound of music can't compare,
With the Christmas choir up here.

For I have no words to tell you,
The joy their voices bring.
For it is beyond description,
To hear the angels sing.

I can't tell you of the splendor,
Or the peace here in this place.
Can you just imagine Christmas,
With our Savior, face to face?

I'll ask Him to light your spirit,
As I tell Him of your love.
So then pray one for another,
As I lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful,
And let your spirit sing.
For I'm Spending Christmas in Heaven,
And I'm walking wiht the King.

By Wanda Bencke

I hope you, Dylan, Jesse, Ralph,Robin and their family, Great Grandpa LaMarche and Uncle Len and Darlene have a great Chritmas together.
I love you all so very much.  Please ask Jesus to keep us all close because it's going to be such a hard time without you sweet princess.    Kisses to heaven for all angel babies and all the other angels.  Merry Christmas.  Tell Jesus HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Love you lots XXXXXXOOOOOO  Grandma Judi

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Merry Christmas  / Carter
I love you and miss you very much.  Merry Christmas and happy new year.  

I love you,
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Merry Christmas  / Kyle
I love and miss you very much.  I wish you could come back and have a very happy Christmas with us. 

I  hope you have a great christmas.  

I love you,
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I'm Back Sweet Princess  / Grandma Judi
Good Morning Sweet Princess Jalyn,

Grandma is finally back to work.  I missed being able to talk to you. I hope heaven is a little warmer than it is here in the U.P.  Either my blood is getting thin or I'm ready to retire to a warmer climate.  

The holidays are coming and I'm just not in the mood.  Being tired and lazy doesn't help.  We all miss you so much and the next few months are going to be so hard especially on Mom and Dad.  Stay close to them, they need you for more reasons than most know but you do.  Mommy misses you so much but I'm hoping some day she can be really happy again and not just on the outside but inside so we can see that beautiful glow she used to have.  Kyle and Carter still miss you lots.  My heart just breaks when I see Kyle crying so hard his little heart breaking cause he wants you back.  It's hard trying to explain why you had to leave when we as adults can't grasp it.  Almost a year later and my heart still hurts so much.  You are one very special Angel, Princess.  I don't know why but you have touched so so many lives here on earth.  I'm betting you were one of God's elite angels sent here for a specific reason and some day we will all know that reason but until then we have to feel blessed that God chose our family for you to be with even for that short time. Maye if Mom would think of it that way, she could start to feel a little better.

 See I think you're the lucky one.  You get to spend Christmas with Jesus on his birthday and the rest of us get caught up in the HO HO HO of Santa. 

Well Princess, grandma better get back to work.  Give Great Grandpa, Dyan,Jesse, Ralph, Robn and their family a great big kiss and hug.  Tell them all I love them very much.  Pull Jesse's ear for me, he'll know why. 

Kisses to Heaven to all the angel babies.
Remember Jalyn- Mom and Dad need you lots right now.

Love you all lots
Grandma Judi  XXXXXOOOOO

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Good Morning My Sweet Princess  / Mommy
Good Morning my beautiful princess.  I am just sitting here thinking of you and wishing you were here.  

Your baby brother is getting sooooo big, but you already know that.  He smiles so much that I know you are with him.  I am so very grateful you have helped him to be healthy.  And I am so very thankful you gave him to us.  He doesn't replace you, nobody ever will....he simply gives my empty arms something to hold again.  

I hope you have a wonderful day in heaven.  Tomorrow Noel and I will be a a candlelight service for you.  Be close to us as it will be hard to be there.  BUt I want to be there for you....to keep your memory alive.  I will ALWAYS keep your memory alive.  

Well baby girl, I have to get your brothers up for school.  I love you and miss you as always.  

Kisses to heaven for you

I love you, 
Mommy
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Happy Thanksgiving Princess  / Mommy
HAPPY THANKSGIVING JALYN!!

I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving in Heaven.  Though I know you will be with us as we enjoy our family and friends.  I only wish you were here to enjoy with us.  

We will be going to Papa Kruegers and then Auntie Jenny and Uncle Jeffs.  Stay with me today.  Even though I am VERY thankful for all that I have in my life...I am also missing you so very much.  

But since you came into my life, I have learned to be more grateful for the little things.  Each smile Leyton gives me warms my heart and makes me smile because I know he is part of you.   Everytime Carter and Kyle say your name and tell me a story about you, I am thankful that they have memories of you.  

So princess, though I will be thankful today, I will also be a little sad, and missing you.  I love you and hope you have a wonderful turkey day with Dylan, Papa, Jesse, Ralph and all the other angels.  

Kisses to heaven and a big hug for you!!

I love you princess~

Love,
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thoughts of you!!  / Untie Nickie
Hello my sweet girl! I am missing you so much today. Your brother spent the night with us and Carter is such a brut!!  I crawled into bed last night and wiped a tear from my eye. But then the smile came. I love thinking of you. As the holidays come I am sure it will get harder but I know you will walk us by the hand and make us strong. I love you baby girl.

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Sleep tight sweet angel  / Amanda
I think of you and Tyler everyday sweet princess.  It makes me smile thinking of the two you playing together in heaven.  I miss you both so much.  The few times I held you Jalyn just weren't enough.  I wish I could hold you just one more time.  I wish I was there to say good bye to you while you were still alive here on earth.  I miss you like crazy and think of you always.  Watch over us.  And Jalyn give me some sign that the two of you are alright. Close

Good Morning my Princess  / Mommy
Good Morning my sweet princess~  

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face because I was thinking of you.  It feels so good to be able to think of you and dream of you without crying.  I know that is what you want. 

I am getting your brothers picture taken today for our Christmas cards and oh how I long to have you sitting there in your dress right in the middle of the boys.  But i know you will be in the picture, but only I will be able to see that.  I know you are with them everywhere they go, so you must be in the picture too.  

Well baby girl, I hope you have a wonderful day in heaven.  Stay close to us and be with Daddy this weekend so he has a safe hunting weekend.  

I will be missing and loving you until the day I hold you again.  

Kisses to heaven for my princess~

I love you,
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