I don't knwo why, but these last few days have been so very hard for me.
I am missing you so much, it feels like yesterday that I lost you. I woke up today thinking I was in a horrible dream. I even drove to the cemetary thinking it can't be here. But it was. God I wish it wasn't. It just isn't fair.
I watch your little brother and I am in awe. I cannot believe how big he is getting and how much he has changed my life. After you, I didn't want anymore children, I was complete. Then when I lost you, I didn't want anymore, I would never be complete again. BUt by the grace of God, I am complete. I will never forget you adn I will always have a palce in my heart for you, but I am complete. I feel guilty for saying that, but I do feel compelte.
Fireworks were a bittersweet time for me. I had tears in my eyes as Leyton was watchign them in the sky. He was so amazed and precious to watch. Then it hit me...I never had this with you. I never got to see your reaction. A few tears fell when I realzied you were there, through Leyton. I was watching you and him.
I know it will be a year and a half since I last held you and that is so unbeleiveable to me. I just cannot seem to gripe the reality that you are gone. I hope you know how much I love you and miss you. I think of you each and every day. You are like a dream to me...a dream waiting to come true.
I will be missing and loving you everyday of my life. You will forever for my sweet princess angel.
My beautiful angel. I am missing you so very much today. I started a new job, as you know and it's really hard being with kids that would be your age. It's hard to see what you would be doing and how grown up you would be.
Somedays are so very hard, like today. No reason, just one of those days. I will be with Ella tomorrow and I will kiss her for you. Sometimes holding her makes me feel so close to you.
Stay close my angel and I will be loving and missing you until I see you again.
It's another gloomy day here on earth. Can't you and all the angel babies give us some sunshine, Please?
Thank you for sending mom a butterfly on her birthday. I sent her our card with the butterfly flying and I think she liked it. Now you need to send me one but we need warm weather first.
I hope you are having a good time in heaven with Dylan, Jesse, Ralph and family. Give them all a big kiss for me. Don't forget great grandpa.
Well sweet angel I have to go back to work. Stay close to me when I'm on the motorcyle. I'll need a few angels on my shoulders especailly going around corners.
I saw my first butterfly this year, and my heart sank a little. Today is my birthday and I just imagine you saying Happy Birthday Mommy with your brothers.
Today was an okay day, I have had better. It was stressful from the beginning and it just got worse as the day went on. I miss you so much and holidays/get togethers really bother me. It's then that I miss you the most.
Tomorrow I am going for an appointment that I am a little scared about, so stay with me. I know everything is fine, it's just the process to get there that scares me. Also, be with Kristina right now. I cannot imagine what she is about to go through. Even though I have not seen her in years, my heart is broken for her.
Well my baby girl, I am missing you so much today and everyday. Be with mommy and stay close to us. I will be loving and missing you every breathe I take.
Kisses to heaven for my beautiful princess. I love you, Mommy
Where do I even begin? These last few weeks have been so hard on me. I am missing you so much lately and it's just too much to bear at times. We have had a few scares with Leyton and Kyle is VERY worried about him. I need you to be with Kyle and let him know everything is okay. It hurts so much to see him hurting. I just want to hold him and tell him that no other child of mine will ever die....but I know I cannot promise him that.
I don't know what it is about spring and summer, but I miss you so much more than in winter. I see little girls in their sundresses and hair in pig tails and I miss you even more. I know you are where God has meant for you to be, I just have a hard time convincing my heart of that.
Your baby brother is getting to darn big! It is bittersweet to watch him grow and wonder what you would have done at that age. He is such a miracle from you and without him, I would not be who I am today. I thank god for all of you each day.
Please be with us and give us some signs that you are there. Always know that i am loving you and missing you. I will forever hold you in my heart.
Happy Sunny Day Princess Jalyn / Grandma Judi Read >>
Happy Sunny Day Princess Jalyn / Grandma Judi
Good Afternoon Sweetie,
As you know I'm back from Arizona. I only saw one pretty yellow butterfly there. Was that you? The weather is getting nicer here so you'll be able to come and visit me in the garden. Bring Dylon with you too.
Did you see me on the motorcyle yesterday? I was asking for your help and I'm going to need you tonight and the rest of this week. Watch over me and keep me safe and on the road. It's a big bike. Maybe you should ask all the angels to help me.
Time seems to just fly by. I hope you are having a great time in heaven. Great grandma will be 91 on Friday. She gave us a scare but she is doing much better now. I hope when Jesus comes to take her home he comes when she's sleeping.
Well sweetie I better get going. I love you lots and lots and miss you more. Stay close to me and the family. Hugs and Kisses to heaven to the most beautiful angel in heaven.
Hi my sweet princess, I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you today, as always.
I am missing you so much and wish you were here. Stay close and know I will be loving you until the day we meet again. I love you so very much my baby girl.
Well my sweet princess, today is one of those days. I am missing u so very much. It hurts so much to be away from you. Today I cannot get over the fact that you are gone. It just doesn't seem real to me today. It feels like I have been living in a nightmare. God I wish that were true.
I was watching Leyton and wondering how you would look with your first tooth, or rolling around on the floor. I guess there are so many unwanswered questions we will never know.
Life here has been okay. Daddy is working out of town and that is a little hard. Life gets hard when you are doing it by yourself. I feel I have nobody here to talk to about you. Nobody seems to understand. I cannot wait for Daddy to be home for good.
Well my sweet baby girl. I will send a million kisses to heaven for you today. Hoping you a joyous day in heaven. All of my heart and soul is with you.
I love you and miss you so very much. Kisses to heaven princess. Mommy
I miss you so much sweet angel. I haven't been feeling well these past couple of days and landed in the E.R. last night because I couldn't get my asthma undercontrol. To top everything off I have some kind of virus to along with it. Is this your special way of telling me to quit smoking? Well baby girl if things continue the way they are I may not have a choice in the matter. I guess the real reason I'm writing is to thank you for sending me this special angel on earth.
No one knows about it so please keep quiet. Not even your auntie Jenny has any idea so lets keep that a secret between me and you. But thank sweet princess. I guess some dreams really do come true.
I miss and love you more the words can ever express. Fly with the angels sweet one and give my baby cousin Tyler a hug for me. I miss him too. Send butterfly kisses to all that love you. Kisses to heaven for all the baby angels.
Hi sweet angel / Amanda
Hi sweet angel. I miss you like crazy and think of you every day. You are always on my mind and in my heart. I miss you like crazy. Fly with the angels sweet princess. I love you. Close
Another holiday without you here. We didn't really do much, we went to Escanaba before the holiday and just hung out with Larry and Tracey at home. It was nice. It was so peaceful and relaxed, just want I needed.
As you probably already know, Great Grandma is not doing so well. I need you to be with her. She misses you so much and I can tell she is getting scared. I know she has had a long, happy life, it just seems too soon. I guess someone is never ready to lose someone they love.
When it is her time to go...please be with her and hold her hand. Tell her it will be okay and give her a kiss for me. I am going to miss her so very much. I just want her to be at peace and happy.
Well babu girl...I will be missing and loving you as always. Kisses to heaven for you.
I woke up this morning with you on my mind as usual. We are heading to Aunt Kathy's for Easter with the Krueger family. Days like today are hard because I want you with us.
Leyton is so stinking big!! I cannot believe how much he has grown. Thank you for being with him and making him healthy. Without him, it would be so much harder without you. I look at him and thank go devery day for him....a little piece of you. I know from the bottom of my heart he is a gift from you and I will forever cherish every moment I have with him and Kyle and Carter.
Well sweet baby girl, I better get ready. I will be thinking of you today as always. You will forever be my beautiful princess. I love you and miss you so very much. Kisses to heaven for my baby girl.
Just wanted to say HI / Erica Ritchie (Friend)Read >>
Just wanted to say HI / Erica Ritchie (Friend)
Just wanted to say Hi, I miss your mom, shes been there for me so many times. I gather strength from her knowing what she has been through helps me belive I can get through my times. Lately they have been few and far between but sometimes they come hard. I am so glad I got to meet you but I wish you could be here to play with my kids. They would love you I know it. You are on my scrapbooked fridge and they sometimes ask who you are. I tell them you are a very special baby girl who lives far away with someone special. They seem to accept that. Hope you are having a great day in heaven today. Thanks for protecting and keeping watch over your mom and family. I know you are with them. Close
I have had you on my mind lots these last few days. No reason, just still trying to figure out why things are like they are. I guess sometimes I still get a little angry with God. My mind tells me you were here for as long as you were suppose to be but my heart and my selfishness wishes you could of stayed for many more years. I know you are happy and having fun with Dylan and Ralph's kids but I really miss you. I can't wait for spring and you can send me my butterflies, remember no moths this year.
Mom finally believes me when I say you do things to me cause you pulled a little one on her when she was coming home. She was having a bad day. I think it was because it was Dylan's anniversary on Saturday.
Auntie Darlene bought a baby doll that she said looks just like you. She has dark pig tails. She's giving it to great grandma LaMarche cause that all she talks about is your black hair. She's not doing well. Almost 91 now, I think the time is coming soon and you will get to see her. Make sure you are there to welcome her to heaven. And tell Great Grandpa he better be behaving himself. Everyone is going to Appleton this week-end for a girls timeout. We are going to have fun.
Well sweet baby girl, grandma has to go now. Thank you for listening to me. I love you Jalyn with all that I am. Butterfly Kisses to you, Dylan, Jesse, Ralph, Robin and family, Great Grandpa LaMarche and all the angel babies in Heaven. Love to you all!! XXXXXOOOOO
Hello sweet princess. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I'm going through a really rough time right now and need a special angel to stay near me.
I can't believe this is your 2nd Valentines Day in heaven. I miss you so much. Everytime I looked at Cinderella's Castle at Disney World I thought of you. I even bought you a Princess sash that I wore all day in honor of you. I gave the sash to your mom so that when the weather gets nice she can put it at your gravesite. I hope you like it.
Stay near your brother Carter. I hear he's having some medical issues and needs an angel to watch over him. Stay near us all sweet angel. I miss and love you so much. Sending you a special Valentine kiss in heaven sweet girl.
Well my sweet princess, here we are...Valentines day. Nothing too exciting here, just dinner out with daddy, and a peaceful night without your brothers.
I have been on your site for a week straight now, trying to get my feelings on paper...they just don't seem to come any more. I saw a little boy with the same birthday as you and ever since then, I have been dreaming of you all day...wondering what you would look like. I imagaine your long dark hair, up in ponytails to match your outfit. I imagine your beautiful blue eyes attracting all the ladies in the stores. But most of all, I imagine you calling me mommy. I haven't felt this way in awhile...but seeing a child your age, just got to me.
He was walking around, playing with toys, acting like a "big boy". He didn't have a bottle, he didn't even have a nuk. Then as I left the room and I looked back one more time with a tear in my eye... he blew me a kiss. It stopped me dead in my tracks. How did this little boy know that was exactly what I needed?
I think I am living my life okay these days...I don't cry very often, I can go to sleep at night with tears and I even talk about you now with confidence instead of tears. But i do think of you each day...something will spark a memory or make me think of you. It's just part of my life now, instead of it taking away my life. Losing you has been the hardest thing I have EVER had to deal with...but it has made me who I am today...I am a strong woman who does not let life pass her by.
As you know we have been dealing with some issues with Carter's health. Please stay with us...he has been through so much. I am so terrified inside but I can't let him know that. I know that you are watching over him and I know he will be okay...he has to be.
So, have a great Valentines Day in heaven my sweet princess. It's so crazy to think this is your second Valentines Day in heaven already.
I miss you more than anything in this life... I will be sending valentine kisses straight to heaven just for you.
Grandma just wanted to say hi and to let you know just how much you are missed and loved down here. I bet you're the sweetiest valentine in heaven.
Please bring us some warmer weather. Grandma is getting old and my blood is thin. I can't wait for your butteflies that you send me, but we need warmer weather for them.
Fly high with the butterflies sweet princess. Kiss Dylan, Jesse, Ralph & Robin and their children. Don't forget great-grandpa LaMarche for me. Kisses and hugs to heaven to all the angel babies.
Grandma Loves all of you lots and lots XXXXXXOOOOO
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